Chp. 2
Afraid
Cora put the kickstand down and chained her bike to the bike rack. She tossed her pop tart wrapper in the nearby trashcan and walked toward the school building. Many kids were already hanging out in the front lawn of the school.
Ohmygosh! Derrick is walking over here. What if he talks to me? How does my breath smell? So tired, I wanna sleep. I’m so fat! Why Can’t I look like her? Why is Abby starring at me like that? Is there something on my face? What fakes, why can’t they just be themselves? I’m 100% sure they hate me now. Why Do I have to be so weird? I’ll never fit in.
Cora starting humming trying to tune out the thoughts of her classmates around her. As if her day hadn’t started out bad enough, what with the dream and all. Now she had to listen to the petty complaints of her classmates. The bell rang and Cora sighed not really excited for her Geography test first period.
The morning passed and Cora felt the stress from her teacher about her marriage problems. Latin wasn’t much better, Mrs. Gates was worried about her sick mother, but she put up a strong front for her students who had no clue. It was no use with Cora, though, not that she admitted to knowing what people were going through. She tried to stay out of their personal business when she could help it. Algebra was okay except someone was struggling with parental problems, something about them expecting her to be perfect. Cora was relieved when the lunch bell rang and she didn’t have to be constantly bombarded with the feelings of the people in the room.
Cora got her lunch box out of her locker and walked to lunch. “Corey! Over here!” Cora’s friend Francesca called from over their table. Cora walked over and placed her lunchbox on the table.
“Where is Kayla and Bobbi?” Cora asked.
“Today’s Monday, they’ve got next period lunch, remember?” Francesca looked at Cora with her stunning and oh-so-rare violet eyes.
“Right, right. I forgot.” Cora said, sensing Francesca felt something might be bothering her, but she didn’t bother to ask. Cora was relieved she didn’t ask, this was what she liked about Francesca, she knew when to and when not to bother people about what was up.
Halfway through Lunch, Francesca reached over Cora’s plate for a napkin and pulling her elbow back she knocked over Cora’s root beer. The soda splashed all over Cora’s lap. “Ohmyword! Corey, I’m sorry. Here let me help you.” Francesca apologized.
“No problem, it’s just my pants, no biggie. I’m fine, lemmie go clean up in the bathroom. I’ll be right back.” Cora smiled, knowing it put Francesca at ease. Cora got up and walked to the bathroom. Cora walked into the bathroom and could hear the faint sobs of the only other person in the bathroom. Ignoring the feelings that were trying to get into her she started wiping her pants clean with paper towels. The feelings became more and more intense by the minute and Cora sighed knowing she could no longer ignore them. Throwing away the paper towel, she opened the locked door in her mind and let the feelings flood in.
He’s going to kill me, if only she were still around, this might be better. His face, I’ll never forget it. My God! My God! Why me? Why did this happen to me?
Cora sighed knowing this wasn’t going to be one of the small petty problems. She walked over to the bathroom door and locked it so no one else could get in. Cora walked over to the stall where the sobs were coming from. She pushed open the door to see a girl curled up in a ball on the bathroom floor. The girl looked up to see who had just come into her stall. Although her eyes were red and puffy and she had snot coming out of her nose, Cora could recognize her as Kristi Lanes, the quiet girl with no friends Cora was aware of in her Latin class. Cora sat down across from Kristi and crossed her legs. She leaned back against the stall door and observed Kristi for a moment as Kristi stared back at her with a confused expression.
“So…pregnant, huh?” Cora said.
“How did you know?” Kristi stared at Cora looking shocked.
Cora nodded her head at the pregnancy test that was on the ground next to Kristi, a plus sign stared back at her ominously. Although Cora had known without the help of the pregnancy test what the problem was. “Oh,” Kristi sobbed.
Cora knew Kristi had no boyfriend and she knew why Kristi was pregnant, but so Kristi wouldn’t get suspicious Cora went ahead and asked the question she already knew the answer to. “You don’t have a boyfriend, do you?” Kristi shook her head. “So this was a rape baby?” Kristi paused a moment, then nodded and her sobs became heavier.
“Why do you care?” Kristi glared at her. Most people would perceive this as being mean, but Cora knew it was just a result of Kristi being scared. Cora placed her hand on Kristi’s shoulder in a sympathetic way.
“Because you shouldn’t have to go through this alone, without someone to care for you.” Cora gently squeezed Kristi’s shoulder and removed her hand. Kristi stared up at her.
“How do you know my family can’t help me?” Kristi responded, once again out of fear.
“Because your mother is dead.” Cora said.
“How did you know that?” Kristi asked.
“I remember my Mom went to her funeral.” Cora shrugged.
“Still, why couldn’t my Dad help me?” Kristi glared at Cora.
“You tell me why your Dad can’t help you.” Cora said, knowing the answer all ready.
Kristi opened her mouth to talk, but nothing came out. After a few moments her lip quivered and she said, “Because he’s abusive.” Kristi began sobbing again. Cora stroked her hair.
“So what are you going to do about Junior here?” Cora asked.
“I…I…I don’t know yet. I was thinking about getting an abortion.” Kristi looked truly frightened now.
“No! No you can’t. I mean, I don’t want to control you, or make your choices for you, but explain to me why you want an abortion. I know you’re scared. Scared of what people will think, or do, or say. Scared of what your father will do, but why does this baby deserve the death penalty for its father’s crime?” Cora blurted out.
“I-I- I…Oh you’re so right! But I am scared, Cora! I am. What if he kills me? He’s abusive, no one else knows that so keep your mouth shut,” Cora nodded and Kristi continued, “He wasn’t when Mom was around, but after she died he became an alcoholic and things just got so bad. He hits me for no reason, but if I’m pregnant, Lord knows what we’ll do! I don’t wanna kill this baby, but I don’t know what else to do!” She started sobbing more.
Cora began to rub her back. “It’ll be okay. We will figure something out. Don’t worry, but you’re going to have to tell him.” Cora said.
Kristi looked up with blood shot eyes. “Okay…okay. But come with me, maybe he won’t be as mean.” Kristi sounded like a small child lost in a grocery store, it was the sound of fear and loneliness.
“Okay, after school. I’ll come with you.” Cora stopped rubbing her back. “For now let’s get you cleaned up.” Cora said taking some toilet paper and wiping Kristi’s brown, puffy eyes.
Then Cora got some not so bad feelings, trust and gratefulness. Cora smiled as she helped Kristi off the ground.